Full-Blown Suffering: A Personal Struggle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden pain sprang behind my right eye. Then came rapid jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition often start with severe pain behind one eye that lasts up to several hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more frequently affected. Attacks usually begin with sudden, excruciating pain focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number fell to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to several causes, made things worse. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize life around erratic pain took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The earliest account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing texts propose bizarre remedies for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by international headache societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by ruling out other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a calm advisor guided them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack passed.

Official guidance on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which apparently soothes the bouts of well-known people.

But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the approach.” Brief bouts with occasional attacks are handled with abortive treatment only. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Tiffany Mooney
Tiffany Mooney

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